It has been an overwhelming week, and hopefully, all of the visiting relatives will be gone soon. i wish this pain in my heart would go as well, but it's not. All day I have been hurting, in particular about a heartache that has hurt for over two years now. I have made a topic about it previosly, and I don't have the energy to say everything that happened again. But it hurts and I think I will always feel worthless and weak because I wasn't good enough for her. I didn't act like other guys who she did accept and no matter how much I work on myself I will never be good enough. I never plan on cutting, it just kind of happens, but if this pain worsens today, I'm gonna start. I'm sorry for taking from anyone else's time with this.