My job went up in flames Wednesday. My truck caught fire. I know it can be fixed etc etc. But my life has sucked for sometime now, and ive been living on that "things are going to get better" line for a long time, why do i have this kind of luck why cant someone else. No income again. I just dont know what keeps me going anymore? Why do I bother? I have a few dreams that keep me going. But reality sets in and I want to push up daisies. Ive been doing good for sometime now with the checking out thoughts until now. First time I tried, I overdosed and a friend called that never calls me and told my mother to check on me. Second time I jumped from a tree 25' up with a rope. I dont remember anything except waking up three days later. They told me the limb broke and I fell on a cop. And to boot I got a disorderly conduct for it. Why cant my life change? Why cant i be as successful as I once was? I dont want to be rich just a steady check and happy. Im miserable. I dont want to die but yet I dont want to live. I just cant take anymore problems Why does my life have to suck?