I can't go on. It is all becoming too much. I feel like hiding and never appearing. There is no point. I am filled with self-hatred and it doesn't feel like it will ease very soon. It hurts so bad and no one really knows the extent I feel, not even the cousellor I have been seeing. what is the point. I want this to end. I can't take it. Travelling on the face of this earth with no purpose, a lost soul roaming.