I just want to apologize to everyone. I sit here on this site reading these posts and trying to be positive in answering their posts. Even in the chat rooms for the most part I try to give everyone the positive answer, to make their situation seem better. I am such a hypocrit, I sit here and all I want to do and plan on doing is killing myself. I personally can't take it anymore, I only need to finish a few things and then I may go. I have no right to try and give people so called "hope", when I have none myself. I am no longer going to answers posts.(at this time anyway) It's not fair to anyone out there to hear me tell them things are going to get better when, for me, I 100% don't believe that. (For myself anyway) Again, I am so sorry to answer posts, I just didn't want to be the one to tell people, hey it is never going to get better. I do want everyone to take care, and try to find good. I've tried, there just isn't any for me. kmj221 :booboo::sorry: