If you are able to type here you can pick up phone and dial for help call operator even who will call ambulance for you call crisis line the hospital and go get your stomach pumped get help now before the damage is done.
I keep telling myself that if i keep going then someday i have the chance to feel differently. if i give up that chance is gone and i will never know what it feels like. i wanna feel happiness and i know if i give up i never will. call 911. keep trying if just for that chance.