I aint see no reason for living

Discussion in 'Suicidal Thoughts and Feelings' started by SuicideHotline, Jul 10, 2007.

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  1. Srsly, life's become shit. And you should know that since I've fuckin turned to a forum site for help. My parents think I'm looking at porn 24/7 so I'm never alone..My sister is a bitch and hates me. My brother is a bitch also. No one in my family talks to me less they wanna complain or yell at me. Barely anyone even fuckin talks to me at all..I fuckin failed. I'm a fuckin loser who aint got shit to do all day except sit at home at a fuckin computer and write songs that suck ass and make beats that suck more. There's nothing left for me here..Everything sucks, I can't get a woman...I have no real friends and I'm just ready to fucking die.
    Worst part of it all, I aint got a loaded gun or a way to kill myself. I've gone through a lot of shit this year, thought it was better, but it aint. I'm thinkin of going out and jumping off a high fuckin building or somethin. I know people got it worse..But that's all it will ever be. If I need to keep going to not seem emo, I will.
  2. SoHappyItHurts

    SoHappyItHurts Well-Known Member

    Socialization is an important factor in feeling better. You may want to see a therapist if your depression prevents you from socializing with others or making new friends.

    Regarding dating, it's easier to meet women when you increase your social network (having more friends-of-a-friend). However, there's always online date matching.
  3. I had friends, most of 'em ditched me. And only talk to me when they're bored or only got no one else to talk to. Everyone where I live is faggots, and I don't even go to school anymore. ((By the way, I can't drive.)) And the girl I like probably aint want me for shit cause she hardly even talks to me and when she says she's gonna call back she normally don't.
  4. SoHappyItHurts

    SoHappyItHurts Well-Known Member

    Well, getting a used car could be very helpful. Of course, that most likely would require getting a job. But if you are too depressed to work or go to school, then you really need to see a therapist, even if you have to beg your parents to take you.
  5. I'd get a job, but I could only work at Chick File since I'm only 14..And I'd like to attempt to enjoy my freedom when I have it...I'm homeschooled and I can't handle school...More problems..I've thought about therapy, but my parents would freak and no one would understand. I'd be dead if there was bullets in my dads gun but there aint. I know people would blow me off if I told them. Or start talking about themselves..So I just sit and vibe to music..
  6. SoHappyItHurts

    SoHappyItHurts Well-Known Member

    Oh, you are younger than I thought. So yeah, I take back the suggestion of working for a used car.

    Depression is very treatable and you need professional help. If you aren't honest with your parents that you need to see a therapist, you are just asking to be miserable.

    If I had a nickle for every teenager that says this.... Anyway, what's the worse that can happen? You really have nothing to lose.
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  7. ((Shrugs,)) I'm not even sure if therapy can help. They'd probably just give me the same shit everyone else does. Either
    A. "Things could be worse"
    B. "Things will get better" Yeah, I aint heard that for over a year...
  8. LonelyTraveler

    LonelyTraveler Well-Known Member

    Or there's
    C. "Life's not fair. Get over it."

    Therapy? Been there, done that, didn't help. Was a waste of time and things actually got worse. I was stigmatized when others found out that I was being taken to her. And then when she told me that I was going to be a drug abuser, I stayed away from them for the next 15 years just to prove that bitch wrong. What I ended up with was no friends and a boring life.

    The rules say that I can't encourage suicide, but I think that it's even worse to fill people's heads with false hope to keep them alive and tell them that they're wrong for wanting to die. That being said, I believe that we're all here to help in any way that we can. :)
  9. SoHappyItHurts

    SoHappyItHurts Well-Known Member

    For better or worse, most 14-year-olds don't have girlfriends.

    One part of therapy is challenging one's assumptions, including assumptions about oneself. For example, you (and most people with depression) see themselves as losers with few prospects. If you don't challenge those negative thoughts, you may be stuck in neutral for a while.

    Read the studies, LonelyTraveler. People who go to therapy are less likely to kill themselves over both the short and long term. Going to therapy also helps prevent and mitigate relapses.
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  10. Aspect128

    Aspect128 New Member

    Hey dude wats up ? I'm actually very close to your age and i can relate to alot of the stuff your talking about. If you wanna talk plainly and bluntly about some things send me a PM and ill give you my messenger name and we can talk.

    Dont worry I'm not gonna preach to you or anything like that. Just feel like talking to someone who might understand.
  11. LonelyTraveler

    LonelyTraveler Well-Known Member

    Do you really think that people answer honestly about a subject as highly stigmatized as mental illness? Get real. Just like when people go to jail; they don't learn to not do the crime that put them there, they just learn how not to get caught.
  12. SoHappyItHurts

    SoHappyItHurts Well-Known Member

    The studies are double-blind studies.

    A common mistake than teenagers and young adults make is that the depression they currently feel is a sign that they are doomed for life. Nothing could be further from the truth. For one thing, there are a lot of major changes that are going on in the brain until the age of 30 and beyond, with the brain never remaining static. Even older adults who are in comas for 15+ years have woken up due to the brain making new connections over time.


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  13. expressive_child

    expressive_child Well-Known Member

    Hey there..

    You said you write songs right? Ever thought of seriously doing something about it? I hate my entire family too for all the hell they put me through and I feel really sorry. If you can write songs, you sure have a talent already and maybe its gonna be useful you know? I am sure you will get a girlfriend someday. Cheer up! I am sure someone can help you out here...
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