I have suffered with depression since I was about 8 & 1st tried to kill myself when I was about 10, then I learnt to live with depression for the next 20 years with a few more attempts, but reciently its started to get bad I get very depressed and think about finishing it & tried 2 weeks ago and have no idea why it didnt work , it took someone 3 hours to wake me up & I couldnt walk or speak for hours & they didnt think anything of it because noone would think I would ever do anything like that, im outgoing friendly make everyone laugh and hide being depressed very well, but this has fkn haunted me for years, I was depressed all day long , then all of a suddenly I feel fine like a big weight was lifted from my shoulders, it does my head in , because know it wont last, but I dont want to goto the doctors incase my 3 kids are taken from me, randomly finding this great site was good though