I dont want to go into details, suffice it to say, I posted a single word on my facebook page, goodbye. I then sent a text to the members of the praise band I am in, telling them i was going away. And then i was just going to get in my car and drive it til in ran out of gas. And whatever area I ended up, was where I was going to end up. Walk out to the nearest woods and wait for the end. that was my plan. Things came to a head last night....(that's the part I dont want to get into). but it's scary when depression tells you that suicide is the only way out of trouble one can get themselves into. I hate myself today...but I am still alive.