I almost willingly went back to the mentalward today

Discussion in 'Rants, Musings and Ideas' started by the_me_that_you_know, Jul 28, 2007.

  1. I really wanted to go to the medical center and tell them everything this morning. I could tell them about how suicidal I am when sober. I could tell them how a certain someone just does her best to make me feel like shit all the time. This certain someone also takes my brother's sedatives herself when he really needs all of them, not just the 1/2 she lets him have so she can have the other 1/2. She has her own fucking tranqilizers too so this action she chooses to take is really]/b] pathetic...... the actions of a stone cold-hearted addict. I could have had her arrested for that I guess.
    What stopped me?
    My brother...... I have no clue what would happen/where he would end up.
    My cat....... no one would be there for him and I don't know what would happen to him. I can't abandon him like that. So that's that. I'm tied into this hell that I call my life and it seems there is no choice but to grin and bear all the pain. And keep hoping for a better, brighter future.
     
    Last edited: Jul 28, 2007
  2. gentlelady

    gentlelady Staff Alumni

    If you feel the best place for you would be back where you can be monitored and meds adjusted, then that is where you should be. You know better than anyone where you are right now. I hope you are able to find that bright happy future. And if you need extra help to get there, so be it. Please take care . :hug: