Im pissed off all the time lately. It seems like everything is just shit. My boyfriends sister is getting married in december to a guy she has known for 6 months and she is pregnant and having a baby, her due date in on my birthday. I know this sounds mean, but she is 18 years old, and i know i changed a lot after i turned 18, and i know this sounds terrible, but she never has even had a relationship that has lasted for over 6 months, she's has slept around so many times i cant even count how many guys she has been with on both hands! and now she thinks she is mature enough to get married and have a baby. for christs sake she borrows money from their parents all the time and lives in a tiny ass apartment and works at a fast food job, and she will be raising a member of a future generation. im just so sick of ppl thinking that having a baby and getting married is no big deal!it is a big deal it changes everything! Not only that but as some of you may have read from my other post, my boyfriend got a DUI the other night, and we have talkedabout it but now i find myself always worrying, what if this happens again, what is going to happen because of this, and what the hell i should do? im angry yes, and dissapointed, but i love him and i believe that he deserves one more chance. I just feel so fucked up about all this and so angry it seems like there is no hope in the world. all people seem to care about is money or sex, and that makes me sick. there is just so much hate, and i get up every morning trying to be posititve and no matter what i do i recieve something hateful from someone, whether its words or actions. i dont deserve this, no one deserves this. I just dont know what to do anymore, if its my anxiety disorder that is contributing to these problems. im wondering if i should take the medication my doctor perscribed to me, i dont like medication, but i just dont know what to do anymore. im so angry and so upset all the time i literally feel sick! I just want to scream, i feel like i want to hurt someone or hurt myself just if anything to get ppl to take me seriously because whenever i try to talk to someone about these things, they just tell me im being negative and pessimmistic . i just want to scream. all this feels like its killing me slowly little by little everyday. everyone says it will get better, and then it does for a while and tehn everything just goes back to the way it is now. Can anyone out there help me, or give me some advice or some hope? please, im at my wits end.