i feel like ive made everyone's life harder the past couple years. i am not a good person. i have huge untreated anxiety issues. i usually lie to cover them up. but my lies have become increasingly worse. i can't remember the last encouraging thing someone said to me was. i owe a ton of people money. my friends and family know they can't trust or count on me. i think its either time for me to die or time for me to go AWOL. i no longer want to be a burden on other people.