One of the 10 Commandments is to Honor Thy Father and Mother. Yet I find this extremely increasingly difficult to do. How do you honor a man who is a child molester? How do you honor a mother, who everytime you call her, she brings depression and despair upon you? How do help them when they live 40 miles away, and you have a crappy car, and no time to go and help? How can I be a good son, when I am scared to call my own mother? Heck, I even feel like I am a Bad Christian. I mean, how can God love me, when I am obviously a bad son for not being able to take the time to help them, or even call? My sister doesnt have faith. She abandoned our parents a long time ago, and is ignorantly blissful of all of this crap. Sometimes, I envy her. I am indeed a bad Christian. And because of that, how in the heck can I get up on that platform every Sunday and help lead in Worship, when I am a hyprocrite? How can I go thru the Christmas Season, trying to rejoice in all that is good about this time of year, when I am obviously a bad person. I feel as bad today, as I did this time last year, when I was alone and drunk most days going thru the divorce crap.