I know for certain that people are wary of me or don't know how to take me. People wont say a word to me unless I initiate something, and i often get a distanced feeling from people. from their voice i can tell im a foreign quantity. People treat me different.They take me seriously. I don't know if its because I look down or fed up or what. It's horrible because i struggle to be outgoing because of anxiety and depression. It makes me feel even less normal. Ive been isolated for a long time as well which does me no favors. This week I had to go out somewhere and I was shaking through nerves. My body seems to stiffen up and have minor spasms. Christ it's hell living like this. I feel so trapped. I wish I was 'special' like everyone else. At 20 years old I should be having so much fun.