I didn't SH for two days. Sounds like nothing but I have been SHing every day (and sometimes even multiple times a day) for months so it was a really big thing for me. And then I relapsed and ruined it all. I am close to giving up on trying to get better. What's the point of stopping when the next relapse is going to be worse than it was before? I am weak and I am a failure. Why don't I just die? The CO2 level in the atmosphere is too high anyway. I don't deserve oxygen.