Really, I wish I could go and crawl into a cave somewhere and hide away from the world. I am pathetic. I am an overweight, broke, selfish pig. I can't ever seem to do anything right. My car will be dead soon. My drum kit already is dead. I am a bad son. My son doesnt really like me. My daughter loves me, because I am not like her mother. I am a goof off, bad parent. I work 2 jobs and never seem to have any money. I am even a good Christian. I am an alcoholic. Why in hell should anyone care about me? And why in hell should I even bother with any of this? And who the fuck cares anways?