Wish I had some support. I am undergoing therapy right now. Tried to <mod edit - methods> , so that I could die in bliss. Didn't have the courage to even do that. Felt soo much anguish that very moment. Not one person is there to care for me. My death is extremely insignificant. I think I will go into psychiatric ward, I am the biggest loser. The least I could do is live with being a loser.