I left my husband and moved to China hoping to find a better living. He cannot keep a job and has a gambling problem. I don't know he has really overcome it but for sure he has no money to gamble right now. I have paid off a lot of his debts. And I did something wrong in China. I fell in love with him. We both knew we have no future because he is very devoted to his kids. He is about to return to his home country in Europe next year. Now my husband wants a divorce because he suspects I have an affair. I have no job in China, he will leave soon, and my family is in another country. I really don't know what to do. I thought of jumping off from 20th floor, but when I think of my mother, dad and sister, I don't want to put them through this. But I don't know what to do. Me and him were crying last night. Why is life so difficult? Why wouldn't anyone give me a chance? I just want a job, a husband who's caring and responsible. Why wouldn't God listen to my prayer?!