Hello
@Hatingmyselfdaily I think you should tell the person you feel closest to, the person you feel will not judge you or ridicule you or add any stigma. I've seen a lot of your posts and it sounds like you have an amazing family, open up to them, it will most likely help and as the old saying goes, a problem shared is a problem halved. I think you should go for it, you asking here ...I'm thinking you think it could help how you feel too?
Go for it. No more suffering in silence