I hate myself. I ruin everything. I'm cold. I'm indifferent. I'm selfish. Disgusting. Ugly inside. I hate myself. I hate myself. How can anyone love me? I don't deserve their love, their care, their time. I'm poison and a plague on this earth. I hate when I should love. I'm promiscuous at the wrong time. I'm indifferent in the face of pain. I don't know how to react. How to be. I am an awful human being and anyone that ever believed otherwise now knows the truth.