Dear Cleric;
This is a moderated forum for a reason. Many of the members have very delicate issues and are easily pushed over the edge. This is a SUPPORT forum, and it's clearly stated in the guidelines that no matter how badly one feels, one is not free to run riot on the forum nor to say anything one pleases, some of which IS insulting or offensive to others. I have read some of your edited posts and in my most humble opinion they WERE offensive and unsupportive. If you are here for support and friendship, just ask and it will be freely given. If you are feeling so badly about yourself that you can only post statements that are derogatory or unhelpful, then perhaps you should seek help from somewhere that doesn't care so deeply about its members nor go to such lengths to defend them.
I am not trying to be argumentative or mean to you - I'm just stating facts. I get the feeling that you are quite possibly in serious pain and misery, and feel very hateful toward yourself. I get this feeling from reading some of your posts, as one of depressions' most obvious symptoms is being really crabby and irritable to others. I know. I've been there and done that. I try to read between the lines of peoples' posts and guess at how they're feeling. Your posts suggest that you are in deep pain and are (perhaps unconsiously) taking it out on others, or maybe just treating others the way you feel YOU are being treated. Again, if you need support and friendship, just ask, and we'll be glad to give it freely. But you are NOT free to say mean, hurtful, insulting things just because you are in pain.
If you want to PM me to discuss this at length, please do so. Until then, I ask you politely and kindly to please moderate your responses and consider how YOU want to be treated (even if you are not treated as you'd like to be treated) and treat others accordingly. Please.
I offer my friendship to you if you will accept it.
love and understanding from one who knows,
least