I did it to myself. just like always, i always fuck myself over. I really should have know better than to get involved again, fuck it NEVER again with her. EVER. I'm so sick and tired of screwing myself over. its like this pattern where i get things going... ok, and then BAM, i do something dumb and im back at the start again. I'm so mad at myself i could scream until my throat bleeds. I hate her for this, i really do. However i hate myself even more. :grr: