I don't want to post this because whenever I do, I feel it to be in vain some times. But I am tired of life. I am tired of being my family's scapegoat. They hold it against me when I need them for something, they get on me when I try to do something for myself. They say I don't appreciate them.....no, it's them who take me for granted. I know I'm not a good person, but at least I try to right. But it's clear it's not going to get better....if things keep getting worse, then at the end of the month, I'm taking my life.