walls are all around me, closing in to a claustrophobic space.
down drops happy people, dancing cheering and stomping on me.
My ribs cracks, I get no air and there is no where to run or hide
My mouth makes no sounds
silent scream, its inside
it makes no imprint on the outside, they can not hear me
I am overdue, long overdue
I got the ticket here, I had it all this time
I just waited for the right time
I have been foolish
death can be at my command
just like that
And I don't have to wait
--
The string from me to my family and friends keeps me in this world.
Why oh why are we connected?
I dare not live
still I refuse to let you suffer for my fear
so I suffer silently instead
every day until I can find a way to let go easy
until my body carry me no more
disgraceful total defeat
the pain carried on to the once I truly love and respect
I can not live and I can not die!
What the fuck do I do?
why do I have to be a martyr? why must I live?
down drops happy people, dancing cheering and stomping on me.
My ribs cracks, I get no air and there is no where to run or hide
My mouth makes no sounds
silent scream, its inside
it makes no imprint on the outside, they can not hear me
I am overdue, long overdue
I got the ticket here, I had it all this time
I just waited for the right time
I have been foolish
death can be at my command
just like that
And I don't have to wait
--
The string from me to my family and friends keeps me in this world.
Why oh why are we connected?
I dare not live
still I refuse to let you suffer for my fear
so I suffer silently instead
every day until I can find a way to let go easy
until my body carry me no more
disgraceful total defeat
the pain carried on to the once I truly love and respect
I can not live and I can not die!
What the fuck do I do?
why do I have to be a martyr? why must I live?