Stuff that's making me stressed and suicidal: 1) My car was totalled and I was injured in an auto accident. Didn't have collision or medical coverage so out of luck. No lawyer wants to take my case cause the other driver lied and said I was at fault and his insurance co denied my claim. Been very stressful trying to find a lawyer but they don't seem interested, at least the ones with the large ads in Yellowpages. 2) My brother is getting married in a few months and demanding that I attend even though I suffer from social anxiety and panic disorder. I have trouble meeting strangers and being in public. 3) My brother wants me to lose a lot of weight for the wedding. I am 5-9 230 pounds so I know I'm fat but being told that is making me even more stressful. I run 5 miles every day but the pounds just aren't coming off!!!!! 4) I lost my job years ago and so don't have any money. My parents and brother have been supporting me finacially so I feel like I have to do what they tell me to do! I am feeling so stressed and depressed that I want to chug coolant or something and end it already. Or maybe go on a looong run in the hot & remote desert without water until I die of heat stroke.