Feeling angry makes me feel alive. It validates that I have been wronged. Anger inspires me to accomplish and rids me of my emotional self-flagellation. When I am angry, I put blame on the rightful owner. When I am not angry, I blame myself and feel depressed. The academic tenure system has to go. Those f'king bully bitches with tenure come after me, but not only me, they are after anyone they consider a threat. They expect us not to fight back because we want tenure. It takes a f'king 6 years to get tenure. That is too long for anyone with a working brain in their head to wait. Regarding my school . . . For 30 years, 3 f'king decades, employees have been complaining about the same departmental bullies and the deans do absolutely nothing but blame the victim. I am seeing a therapist who has been in practice for 30 years and who has met with staff, faculty, administrators and community folk who have had problems with the same bullies. The dean should be fired along with the bullies. When I am angry, I want to live. This feels good.