i am finished

Discussion in 'Suicidal Thoughts and Feelings' started by isd, May 31, 2010.

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  1. isd

    isd Well-Known Member

    i have body dysmorphic order and it is killing me, i just can't take it anymore.
    it is also age related so gets worst with time. i am too pathetic to accept aging i am fucking vain and shallow. everyone else can, what's more i male, mid 30s. i am obsessed with my hair, it is receeding. i have shaved it off every night for 2 or 3 years, but it does not help. i have a massive freak forehead

    i am looking in mirror, i am going to die in this flat. i am gripped by this bbd and agrophobia and a whole load of depression issues, regarding work, friends and family. i want to destroy my friends how could they leave me alone to die.

    i have not been out socially with anyone for 2 years. i used to go out 3 timse a week. i dont care about bullshit socialising now, but there must be something more than this madness. i've had depression 8 years and i am exactly where i started if not worst

    i feel total humiliation because of this weakness. the only thing stopping me is i am a coward
  2. Nox Immortalis

    Nox Immortalis Well-Known Member

    Hang in there! PM me anytime hon
  3. Kiba

    Kiba Well-Known Member

    I kinda understand were your comming from. I know how hard it is to have to be or look perfect somtimes too.. (dang OCD!!) X_X

    Ive also been in treatment a long time.. not as long as you, but I know its frusterating when you think you should be a lot better by now and you feel like your still just up in space.

    Its also harder when you are already depressed and now you have some illness thats making it worse.. heh.. like my broken thumb atm.. X_X

    Anyways, if you want Im here to talk. Hope u feel better.
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