I have chosen to die.
Now that I made that decision it feels nice. I don't have to worry about the future and I don't have to worry about trying to live in this terrible world. I don't have to deal with the news or the emails in my inbox or worry about how I'm going to live. I don't have to deal with the loneliness or the constant anxiety or waste any more money trying to fix things that can't be fixed. I won't be disappointing anyone anymore or I won't have to deal with people I won't have to waste my life doing things I don't want to do. I won't be wasting any more resources or harming the planet anymore.
I made this decision out of logical reasoning, not emotion like my many, many, many other attempts which is why they failed.
I like this feeling of nothing, nothing to worry about, nothing to plan for, nothing look forward to. Just nothing. I have no qualms about doing this, I know all resources have been exhausted, I know I cannot face either living on the street or in a state hospital, I cannot face school or living at home. But I don't have to anymore.
Now that I made that decision it feels nice. I don't have to worry about the future and I don't have to worry about trying to live in this terrible world. I don't have to deal with the news or the emails in my inbox or worry about how I'm going to live. I don't have to deal with the loneliness or the constant anxiety or waste any more money trying to fix things that can't be fixed. I won't be disappointing anyone anymore or I won't have to deal with people I won't have to waste my life doing things I don't want to do. I won't be wasting any more resources or harming the planet anymore.
I made this decision out of logical reasoning, not emotion like my many, many, many other attempts which is why they failed.
I like this feeling of nothing, nothing to worry about, nothing to plan for, nothing look forward to. Just nothing. I have no qualms about doing this, I know all resources have been exhausted, I know I cannot face either living on the street or in a state hospital, I cannot face school or living at home. But I don't have to anymore.