I Am Going To Do It Today

Discussion in 'Help Me! I Need to Talk to Someone.' started by Godsdrummer, Nov 6, 2011.

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  1. Godsdrummer

    Godsdrummer Guest

    I really screwed the pooch this time and I cant get out of this mess. I am going to do it, tonight. I have the method finally.
     
  2. Sadeyes

    Sadeyes Staff Alumni

    What is going on? Please tell us, and PM me if I can remind you how you are cared about
     
  3. 1Lefty

    1Lefty Well-Known Member

    Just from your post count, it looks like you might have contributed a lot here. There still could be some others (like me) who could use some insight for when it gets dirty.
     
  4. Godsdrummer

    Godsdrummer Guest

    I am still here. And I am not going to do it. I am just so scared. I have been sick lately. I hav bulging discs in my neck, pinched nerves going down my arms. Found out I am a type 2 diabetic. And have been high on norco for the past 3 months because of all of this. But the worst is, I have gotten myself in it deep with a couple of online payday loans. I can make the interest only payments...but when the bill finally comes due...well I have screwed the pooch when it comes to Christmas...and the worst part of it is, all that money I borrowed, I really didnt accomplish much. I had a nervous breakdown Friday morning at home. Thankfully no one was home. I cried harder than I have since the first Christmas that I spent away from my wife and kids when we went thru our seperation period.
     
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  5. Sadeyes

    Sadeyes Staff Alumni

    I have Type 2 too...stinks..I fall asleep with too many carbs..and about the debt, you will pay what you can and arrange an offer in compromise...they would rather get that than nothing and usually will arrange a payment plan with you...so sorry you feel so low but glad you told us what was going on...please keep me posted and know there are plenty of open arms here for you
     
  6. Godsdrummer

    Godsdrummer Guest

    They got my bank account info.
     
  7. Sadeyes

    Sadeyes Staff Alumni

    Still try to make an offer in compromise
     
  8. EmotionalItch

    EmotionalItch Member

    I bought a <edit moderator total eclipse method> last Friday . So far I have just looked at it and have yet to purchase . I had every intention on using it today but made it through the day by taking one-breath at a time. The dynamic of being accutely suicidal is profound , scary.
     
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  9. Lost_Daughter

    Lost_Daughter Well-Known Member

    I am glad u are stll here. Please believe there is always hope and help surrounding you. My mother commited suicide last year and financial problems played a major role in that. Please know that no amount of money or christmas gifts can replace you :) make your children your reason to fight and take it day by day. There is no greater pain than loosing a parent and knowing it was their choice to leave. Best wishes to you and focus on the blessings in your life, behind every cloud the sun still shines!:IrishDoll:
     
  10. Godsdrummer

    Godsdrummer Guest

    Thanks Lost.

    It may not matter much anyway, nature maybe doing what I can not do. I seemed to have lost 13 pounds since my last Doctors appointment, which was less than a month ago. I am having terrible stomach cramping and pain. I already have been diagnosed with some plumbing diseases, namely diverticultis and hyiatal hernia. It's possible that my condition may have worsened. Now, I would never pray for cancer, but if it is, then that certainly would take suicide out of the equation.
     
  11. gentlelady

    gentlelady Staff Alumni

    I am sorry to hear you are having so many medical issues Bill. I hope you can at least get the pain in check. Things always seem worse when you are in pain. As J mentioned, call those you are in debt woth and see if you can reach some sort of compromise. They often times are willing to try and work with you. They do not like to be ignored though.
    I am glad to see you are still here. :hug:
     
  12. Butterfly

    Butterfly Pokémon Master Staff Alumni SF Author SF Supporter

    I am so sorry to hear about all the pain you are in hun. If there's anything I can do even if it's just someone to rant to, pm box is always open :hug:
     
  13. Godsdrummer

    Godsdrummer Guest

    Thanks guys!
     
  14. Lost_Daughter

    Lost_Daughter Well-Known Member

    I am very sorry for the health issues you have been facing lately. I worked at at a hospital for 8 years and have watched many peoplesuffer with a wide variety of illnesses. Watching the families by their side was often heartbreaking but the love that surrounded them was amazing. I hope that you are seeking the professional medical help that you need. Keep in mind that none of us know when we will take our last breath but we can control how we spend each moment we are given. Let those you love know how much you love them, share your hopes and your fears, and take it day by day. I am certain that you are loved much more than you realize. Take care and believe:)
     
  15. Godsdrummer

    Godsdrummer Guest

    Thanks again Lost!
     
  16. Petal

    Petal SF dreamer Staff Alumni SF Supporter

    I'm glad you've decided not to do it :hug: hang in there bill, we care about you, much love

    inmemoryofyou xox
     
  17. Sadeyes

    Sadeyes Staff Alumni

    And please re-read your sig...it is powerful and helpful
     
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