I have read alot of posts lately saying that no one belives them, no one likes them and so forth. How about moving somewhere else, cause there are alot of people that want to help you, and other people like you who feel alone. I am lucky, I have a girl that understands me, she also has problems so we understand eachother on a very deep level. She is my angel, she keeps me alive.
Basicly, what I am saying is find someone, someone that understand and yes it is hard. No one of my friends except her would understand if I told them about my suicidal thougts and my cutting and the way I always pretend to be fine, when I am crying on the inside...
Good luck, we're here for you...