I am a 41 year old man who has been through a lot lately. I tried to kill myself when I was about 14. I wouldn’t have tried but when I told my step father, and my mother I was thinking about it, they said I should go ahead and do it. That devastated me and they pushed me over the edge since I could tell by there comment they did not care. I took pills and was taken to the hospital. I was sick for days and lost some of my hearing in one ear because of the pills. BTW: I hear a lot of people say that “people who threaten suicide are really just looking for attention so go ahead and tell them to do it so they will chicken out.” Is this true? For me it was not the case. I am just wondering if there is any real data on this. Anyway, while I do not want to kill myself now, I have been under a lot of stress. I try to tell my wife who I love dearly of 17 years that I can’t handle it and that I need for her to work with me to get done the things done that need to be done. She just doesn’t get it. She wants to just do everything herself so I feel like a loser for not being able to do it all, or she wants me to do everything myself and that is pushing me to my breaking point. I think about suicide a lot now. (Not that I want to kill myself.) I just can’t stop thinking about it. I just kind of feel numb. What I want is for her to work with me on things so we can accomplish things together. No mater how many times I tell her this she doesn’t understand and I don’t think she know how close to the edge I am. I really can tell anyone I know about this because I can never give someone the same control over my future the way I did my parents. I think telling someone to go ahead and commit suicide makes them just as guilty of murder as if they has pushed them off a cliff themselves. I don’t really know why I decided to post here other then right now life sucks.