I know we are not allowed to discuss methods, but I have been <Mod edit - methods> now. First, I manage to get by on just <Mod edit - methods> most nights, and secondly, the pharmacist made a mistake and is giving me <Mod edit - methods> every month instead of the <Mod edit - methods> he is supposed to. I have said nothing and just get <Mod edit - methods> days (the pharmacy does not quibble about asking for a monthly prescription to be filled after 25 days). So I now have <Mod edit- methods> away, although I don't know if that is a lethal dose. And they make it DAMNED hard to find out. Why do I do it? Because it gives me a feeling of security to know I have that "escape button" I can press if life gets too much. Or for example, if I find out I have untreatable cancer, I am not going to a hospital where they "manage" your pain. That word "manage" scares the hell out of me. You can be in torment for a year before you die, as long as you don't scream loud enough to disturb the nurses, I suppose. I want to have that option. It is my life and my decision, and nobody is going to take it from me with their shiny-happy bullshit.