Sorry I have not been on in a while. I have just kind of closed up and shut everyone out. It is another day... God wants me to live... so others can be free of suicide and depression... but who is there for me? At least you are... you are my closest family... you are my closest kin. It is very hot in here. I have to log off to keep from overheating my system. For those who know me... I am in counseling... but the sessions are failing. I missed them today... I just could not get myself out of bed to go.