Black and white, BPD
One one hand, I want help, I want people to care
On the other hand, I dont want help and desire to be alone
And disappear
I don't really know what to do anymore
I don't want to get better
I want to just be a victim and not do the hard work
That means there is no point to therapy
That means there is no point to medication
That means there is no point for me
I feel like all I do these days is treat people like shit
I always crave attention but make every god damned excuse to not take any help or advice
I am truly impossible
One one hand, I want help, I want people to care
On the other hand, I dont want help and desire to be alone
And disappear
I don't really know what to do anymore
I don't want to get better
I want to just be a victim and not do the hard work
That means there is no point to therapy
That means there is no point to medication
That means there is no point for me
I feel like all I do these days is treat people like shit
I always crave attention but make every god damned excuse to not take any help or advice
I am truly impossible