I have been on my feet for more than 17hr yesterday, working at this event I had to go to. Hard, hard, hard work. My feet and legs started to hurt after 10hr. Towards the end I could barely feel my feet, the pain was unbearable that I wanted to cry and I had to be there till the end. That fuckhead of my boss showed up 2hr before the end of the event doing fuck all, didn't give a shitting help to nobody. I made a connection with someone for another job (hopefully) while there. Anyway, I had bus, train to catch and walking. Due to enormous pain I was feeling, the last stretch from the station to my flat I did it crawling like a worm.... Took me 2hr to arrive home, feeling worse than when I left at 6.30am..... A combo of physical pain, distress, depression and anger made me cry to sleep last night... Now I am slightly cheering myself up listening to Girls Aloud. Yeah, easy pop music but that's what I need right now. When Girls Aloud started in 2002 I never thought I would like their vocals and catchy sound years later. I did not like them at first. I started to like them from around the time of "Long Hot Summer" onwards. This is the kind of music I need right now. I don't care if it's mainstream pop. When the music is good, especially when it has positive vibe, I don't care about labels nor of whomever might playing it or sing it. Music, watching animals documentaries, artistic expressions are some of the things that make me happy. Working 9 till 7 or 8am till 10pm for a bunch of assholes and their crap biz is the opposite of happiness. I gotta do something to change all this. Either I go back studying, learning a new craft in line with my creativity or I haven't got the clue how to get out of this depressing circle of awful jobs, jobs that I hate, office politics, bullshitters, lazy people doing nothing while I slave like an idiot.... This is literally killing me. Not only it has almost killed my ability to take a pen and start sketching something good, but it's physically debilitating me now. Enough.