i believe in god, and i think that when we are all alone and in desperation, he is there, he is watching us and that is why i havent cut in so long, because i dont want to feel like he is ashamed of me. and i dont think that if you kill yourself, you go to hell even though it says that in the bible. because if god was that cruel to send someone who has suffered all of their life to hell to suffer more, then i dont think that he would have sent his son to die for our sins....idk i am kinda really religious at times