I am not sure if I am mentally sick or just depressed. In other people's eyes, I am a normal person. I am healthy and I have a decent job. My husband is nice to me as well. But, I am not happy, every single day! - I don't like my job. I am stressed a lot from my work. - I don't like my co-workers. They are so cocky. They also look down on people who have accent, like me (I am not a native english speaker) - I don't like to socialize with other people in the office. I just sit there and do my work. I don't know how to bullshit. - I am not confident enough in myself. I am not pretty. My English is not good enough no matter how hard I try. I want to change my job, but I am so scared of being interviewed. - I want my parents to come over to visit me. But they don't want to because they don't like here. - I had a terrible miscarriage experience 5 years ago. I tried to get pregnant again since then but it does not work. I feel like I am not a woman any more because I can't even produce a healthy egg. - I feel very very insecure inside. Nothing else can make me feel secure but money. I always think I will lose my job or lose my husband some day. So, I try very hard to save every single penny. But I hate myself doing this. I almost don't buy anthying for myself. I am so cheap to myself... - My best friends are my dogs and my husband. They are my circles.