Things are probably not good for me. It started yesterday. I got out of bed and sat on the couch and before I knew it an hour had passed. I had just sat there. I did not fall asleep or anything I was just sitting there doing nothing. After a little thought and another hour or so I finally got up and went and did some errands. Then the nothing resumed even after I ate. I am embarrassed and ashamed that I am unable to dedicate myself to not drinking. I got 10 days and then gave up again. Then I got to see something was really weird with my cat. Given her kidney problems and potentially her diabetes that is not good. She sticks to the ground she struggles to climb stairs. There are other things as well. Now I get to wait until Thursday to see the vet. I am not sure what I am going to do. I am scared that this might be a really bad thing.
This not good it is effecting my work negatively. I cannot focus I cannot do anything. I cannot have fun. All I can think about is either hoping something bad happens to me or wondering what could be wrong with my kitty. Things are just too strange and it has only been a couple of days. I am not sure how I am going to be able to kick myself back into gear. Will I be able to do it at all or is this just how I am from now on?
This not good it is effecting my work negatively. I cannot focus I cannot do anything. I cannot have fun. All I can think about is either hoping something bad happens to me or wondering what could be wrong with my kitty. Things are just too strange and it has only been a couple of days. I am not sure how I am going to be able to kick myself back into gear. Will I be able to do it at all or is this just how I am from now on?