Welcome to S.F. I think everyone here is looking for some kind of help, sometimes it's just help to realize we are not alone. That we have not been singled out by society or what ever manifestation of divinity exists. We all here want to help each other and that includes helping you. Just keep in mind none of us are professionals, and we all have problems which we are trying to deal with.
That being said this is a very good place to blow off steam. To read about other's struggles, and share your own.
If you ever feel as if you are at the end of a rope and your only alternative is self harm, then please call emergency care professionals. Because we can only listen, and share our own experiences.
I hope you find comfort in your life and a home here.