Well i joined this forum thinking school was my problem... turns out thats just one of many triggers. At this point... I just do not see any chance of enjoying life anymore. It's spring break... and I have nothing better to do then play video games... I have no friends, and to afraid to try to make any more... and have seen how that **** ends anyway. At this point.. the video games i used to enjoy are just a reflection of the rest of my life... I need to work 20X as hard to do 1/2 as well... I just do not have any natural talent... my other hobbies are going down that same direction... I watch people who have been at it less then half the time I have approach me in skill... I thought school was my problem... but i don't know anymore... even the time I do have to myself... I can't enjoy... i am so sick of failing... and getting very tempted to end it all.