i think its true and i have to see the reality.. i am mistreated from being a baby for this reason. i am not a human. i am not a human to any body. im not a human to my birth parents, the people who raise me from a young age, my boss or the people at work. when dogs are very sick or old, they are killed calmly, right? i dont understand why i cant do the same. its not different. i dont see me as a human. im not a human. all of the time that i am abused.. physically and sexually abused when a child by people who raise me, sexually abused by people as teenager, emotionally abused by bosses and people at work.. i am not a human, i am a dirty mutt who gos to people to beg. thats what i am. there is dogs that live on the street and never have any family or any friends, right? dirty dogs who sleep in the rain. that is me. like a mangy dog, i am skinny and destroyed. i am a dog. not a human.. im a dog. i am asking to get hurt from begging to people. i am a abused dog that cowers. thats what i am. when i die, people who see my death wont be upset because it will be like seeing a dog get hit by a car. who cares? its just a dog..