Lately I feel more and more like I am willing to take a life threatening risk because I stand at choice that system silly to some who read this but the fact is, I can't take it anymore. It has been 24 years since my body stole my life away. I was an amazing gymnast, dancer, and runner. I then developed during puberty as most girls do, but I must have fallen into a batch of miracle gore as my chest grew destroying my ability to continue in what I loved. Over the years my back ached like an old lady, my posture leaned, my shoulders grooved in and my neck hurt. Clothing was hard to find and despite all this I am shot down from insurance for help. Over the last several years I have been legally collecting medical and surgical supplies. I can't afford the surgery so I am at 2 -3 options. Do it myself, which is extremely risky. Find someone who will do it cheap, Maybe a doctor who lost a licence or I train someone, but how do I do that? Put an ad on Craig's list? Or end my misery all together. I just don't know what to do, but I am not waiting forever. I just wish I had better options.