I am so far from ok, I am so tired, so worn down I do not know the way to turn anymore. Three weeks of barley able to function and I am at the end of my reserves on how the hell to cope with this. Ya, I am not ok, and no one around seems to fully grasp just how bad things are, nothing but platitudes when I am screaming, yelling and drowning for help. I just need one day, one night, a bit of time to rebuild my reserves but this seems not to end, a dark road that seems to never end. I just want to break down and cry, to sit and let the tears flow but even those will not come anymore. I would give anything to stop feeling like this, if not for the people I would hurt I would walk away from this life, but I truly wonder how much more I can take before even that is not enough to hang onto anymore.