It's 11:04p and I am sittting on my dad's computer surfing the web b/c I can't sleep and have not been able to sleep for days. Why I am at my dad's house? B/c I got evicted from my apartment for not paying me rent. My dad does not want me here and my mother told me to go to a homeless shelter! On top of that I got dismissed from college b/c I failed most of my classes b/c I was too depressed or too manic to go! The one joy I find in life is encouraging youth at my home church but even that is being taken away from me. Many feel b/c of my age I don't know what I am doing and have no right to encouarge and inspire youth. There is only one thing that keeps me from checking out of life and that is my pride and joy my baby brother. He is so special to me! But I don't know if that will be enough to keep me much longer. I don't feel I can go on! I don't want to go on! The fact that I am still here is a miracle in itself. I am lonely. I feel unloved, unwanted and a burden to everybody. I need some help!