I am not okay

[wunderwood]

I have not been doing well at all lately. Can't sleep, totally messed up eating, drinking a lot, anxious, depressed and so alone.

I had an appt today at a rcc and it was one of the most horrible experiences i have ever had. I thought I was trying to do the right thing and reaching out. I can't do anything right and i can't get anyone to care about me. One of my best friends has completely ignored me since the assault. I guess I really am broken and worthless this time.

I can't do this alone, but I don't have anyone here. Literally anyone who gives two shits about me lives 3000 miles away. I don't want to talk on the phone anymore, I want a hug so desperately that it hurts.

I have no plans of drastic measure, just that I can't do life like how it is right now. It is like depression is seething out of every pore.

 

[Sadeyes]

It is so sad to hear another story about how the victim gets punished...you have to be your own advocate, and when the mental health system does not provide you with what you need, RANT...the squeeky wheel does get the oil in this regard...do not take it quietly...you are worth a lot and deserve good care and a good life...clearly, you did not askfor any of this...big hugs, J

 

[Stranger1]

Hey wunderwood,
What is an rcc? I see you live in Florida also, does your county have an organization called ACT there? It is a mental health facility where people in crisis can go if they have no insurance, and/or low income. They will admit you if you tell them you are in crisis,(it helps if you have a suicide note). I have been there seven times before my SSI kicked in. Then I was admitted the last time at the regular hospital because I had medicare with my disability.
I still go thru ACT for my visits to see my shrink and to get my meds. Check in to it because from what I have read you are in a state of depression. You need to leave the booze alone because it is a depressant. It's not helping you. If there is no ACT there check with your local hospital and find out if there is anywhere else that provides these services there locally. I hope you find the help you need! You also have us to lean on and to gain support!~Joseph~

 

[wunderwood]

rcc stands for rape crisis center. I don't know if there is an ACT here, what does it stand for? I don't want to be admitted anywhere.

 

[snowraven]

Sorry to hear how you are feeling and that you are not getting the attention you deserve. I can only send you a hug from here and wish you all the best. If you feel you need to chat though just pm me. I will always answer as soon as I can.:hug:.S.