I have not been doing well at all lately. Can't sleep, totally messed up eating, drinking a lot, anxious, depressed and so alone. I had an appt today at a rcc and it was one of the most horrible experiences i have ever had. I thought I was trying to do the right thing and reaching out. I can't do anything right and i can't get anyone to care about me. One of my best friends has completely ignored me since the assault. I guess I really am broken and worthless this time. I can't do this alone, but I don't have anyone here. Literally anyone who gives two shits about me lives 3000 miles away. I don't want to talk on the phone anymore, I want a hug so desperately that it hurts. I have no plans of drastic measure, just that I can't do life like how it is right now. It is like depression is seething out of every pore.