I am confused as if I suffer from an ED as I do not really fit into any of the ED bands. I mean I know something is not quite right and that I do have one possibly. When I spoke to the samaritans they seemed quite concerned and told me to speak to my gp. Ok so I little bits the maximum of one meal a day not even that. I hate the thought of food in side me as I have to be thinner so everytime I eat I take laxatives that makes me feel better. I am aware that I am in my ideal bmi range...apparently, but everytime I look in the mirror I see this huge fat ugly person looking back. People say I have a gorgeous figure me be curvy, a size 8 on top and 10 on bottom (english sizes) but I do not see it. I want to but I don't. All I see is why people do not agree with what I do if I ever talk about food this is my secret and know one knows what I am doing and if they do not the true extent of it all. I look healthy and well so that makes things an easy cover up. I live with my parents for half the year to which I manage to skip breakfast and lunch and eat half of my evening meal (which is followed by laxatives.) When I am at uni I snack but this would be something like a packet of crips that would last me six hours to get through. and then maybe eat something else. I seem to eat no more than 700 calories a day and depending on what and how much I eat depends oin the number of laxatives I take. God help me if I go over 700 calories. Oh yeah and my weight seems to fluctuate. Sorry a small explanation but I was wondering if someone could shed some light on this in terms of ED's and what one. someone help?