I'm not worth your time or words or thoughts. I'm not trying to make you feel guilty, I am simply stating the facts. I am not worthy of any of it, and whats more I barely even care if I am anymore. I don't want to cause anymore upset. I don't want to be upset. I don't want to cause anymore hurt, but I also don't want to hurt. I am therefore glad I can finally be numb and all of you can find ways of ignoring me... or just being happy when I do not speak to you. Maybe then we can all get along... at least til I finally decide I've had enough and just leave. I guess thats the only thing I've not done yet, made the decision to leave. Not sure why I'm making this post even, maybe its just a rant... maybe its my way of starting to say good bye.... maybe its really just me being the bitch a lot of you already have decided I am.. you decide, I'm tired of thinking.