it feels like my brain and body can't function. My thoughts are on only one thing. I am watching everything happen from the corner of the room. And I'm not scared, confused worried, nothing. It feels comforting. This is where I 've needed to be for a long time now. I've been suicidal basically every since I found this forum and to me this isn't a crisis. This is what I have been searching for. Finally something else is in control and I can just rest and go along for the ride. The ride to the peace I've been wanting and needing for such a long time.