I really am, I still love her and its tearing me apart. Anyone would tell me to give up and move on, but I can't. I'm miserable, and I know I need to be strong for my daughter, but its just so hard sometimes. I hate myself for my weakness, and I do truly mean that. In addition, I must say that I sincerely wish I was dead and in the ground. Thats not an option at the moment, but how I wish it was. FML! Someone just kill me... Please?