Hello, this is the very first forum I have joined. I am hoping to find hope here. "I am pragmatic- that is, I am realistic about my situation and prospects. I am in a bad place, but not in "crisis mode." However, since I have long battled my emotional and mental demons, I am exhausted and am looking for help that pills and psychotherapy have not changed in me. I am a male, Caucasian, aged 53, with a graduate degree, and have no real support group or family connections. I have had ECT treatments, been in private and state psych wards, tried 27 psych meds, had talk therapy, and even volunteered for a clinical trial for ketamine (but was not accepted because I did not meet the criteria.). I recently resigned from my teaching job due to teacher burnout. I would appreciate any support I can find here. Joe- "PhiloJoe"