So yesterday I went out and purchased myself a new car. I need a vehicle to so I can transport myself around. Yet all of the sudden the joy and comfort my new toy brought me was gone. I am right back to the bottomless pit that I came from. This is a sign, a sign that I am going to act on my impulses soon. Getting new things that I actually wanted used to bring me such wonderful joy. It made me enjoy life... I think. Yet now that feeling comes and goes like the wind. I cannot enjoy anything. I think that is why I do not update my websites any more. That is why I just leave video games in their wrappers. That is why I do not upgrade my computer. Everything I do is just an empty void. Pointless and plain, just me trying to force myself to fit in with society.